We're Expecting*!!

jonzbabii624 @ 2005-02-24T08:34:00

2005-02-24T14:38:01Z

My little Angel is soo spoiled, but its precious, because I doubt me & Jonathan will have another one. He says he doesnt see me doing it again, since Im having such awful problems with my back. & hes probably right. That epidural is still hurting me. Its okay though.. whatever happends, happends. If we do have more, I dont want to have any for atleast 3 years. I was coooking dinner last night, & when I walked into our living room, Jonathan had Trev on his shoulder & was crying!! I asked him what was wrong & all he could say was that he was "soo happy to be a daddy".. & it was soo cute. I CANT even make Jonathan cry lol. But yall will understand that one day when you have children.. which BETTER BE A LONG TIME FROM NOW!!! :) Trevors able to focus on my face now, & it melts my heart everytime he looks at me. I love being a mommy, & a wife. Yeah it happend soon & quick but Ive got the GREATEST husband in the world & the most beautiful son ever. <33

jonzbabii624 @ 2005-02-09T09:59:00

2005-02-09T16:00:35Z

Trevors growing like a weed. He's already 2 weeks and a day old, & it seems like I just brought him home from the hospital yesterday. It's amazing. I loveeee being a mommy!! AHHH! I got to talk to my friend SHANE today. I MISS HIM SOO MUCH. He's ALWAYS been an excellent friend of mine, & one of the few guy friends Jonathan likes, so hearing from him again, even though we were online, was awesome. Im soo glad to know he's doing good, & all of that. ♥

Ill make a longer update later I guess, I want to go finish chatting. ♥ Mollie

jonzbabii624 @ 2005-02-02T15:06:00

2005-02-02T21:15:12Z

Nothing interesting has happend latley. Its rainy & gross outside, & I dont want to bring Trevor out into it. Otherwise, Id go visit a lot of people, but I cant !! Thats okay though, anything for my little sweetheart. Hes growing so fast it seems. Hes already eating 3oz. of food each time i feed him a bottle, which is excellent. He was only 6 lbs 11 oz. when i had him, so i hope hes gained some weight since hes been here. Hes now waking up atleast once every two hours & he's hungry, & after he wakes up hes awake for an hour wanting to lay there & stare at everything he can focus on. His eyes are turning brown, *Honey Brown* which is MY color, & hes definatly got my cute little feet! Im so proud of him. Being a mommy is such a great feeling.. ♥♥♥

Anyways. Jonathans got class tonight.. college, whoo hoo!! I'm thinking about going back to work on Monday. I dont know though, because today, I can feel a large lump-like feeling where my incision is, & it worries me. I dont know if its just my tissue healing or if its messed up seriously. I guess thats my fault though. I'm supposed to be on bed rest & i haven't really gotten the rest i need. Partially because JOnathan works from 7-3:30 in the afternoon & its been rainy so ive sympathised with him & let HIM take a nap during the day.. but thats ok with me !! Hes an excellent husband. Anyways, i think I'm going lay down before he gets here.. maybe get something to eat. I dont know. My doctor says I've already lost almost 75% of my "baby-weight" so this diet im on is working.. i'm not eating anything, & just drinking a lot of fluids lol. okay i'm going !! BYEEEEEEEEEEEE ♥ ♥

[-ps-] my moms been trying to get me to let her have trevor on mardi gras so me and jonathan can go, soo yall be looking for me !! :) !! i dont know whether or not ill really go, because trevor will only be two weeks old, but we'll see what happends. ♥

jonzbabii624 @ 2005-01-31T07:42:00

2005-01-31T13:45:23Z

well, I'm not expecting anymore :) !! yesssss I had him last Tuesday, at 4:42 PM. He weighs 6LBS 11Oz and he was 20 1/2 inches long. I was in labor with him for 21 1/2 hours, but then the doctors couldnt get me to dialate anymore, & they thought my hips were to small to pass him, so they took me into emergency c-section. which was fine with me. my recovery is going semi-okay although im still having a few problems with my back from the epidural they gave me, but it's nothing that can't be fixed !! Sooo anyways, I just wanted to make a quick update about my little angel. Ive got pictures so if you wanna see'm just ask for em.. but I'm not posting them. Thanks to everybody for the support. trevors here & hes healthy & happy & that makes me even HAPPIER !!!

jonzbabii624 @ 2005-01-20T16:16:00

2005-01-20T22:21:48Z

My friend Joel has a livejournal now so I figured I might as well start updating, that way it'll keep him informed on what's going on. lol. [[hey joel!!]] Anyways. I didn't go to my last appointment because Dr. Mcclure was laboring somebody so I would have been up there until 6 in the afternoon.. Soo I just rescheduled until next week. Over Christmas break I went into premature labor twice, so the doctor is expecting my little angel to be here any day now. That's why I haven't returned to school yet.. & I probably won't until next year. For some reason, I just LOVE the freshman this year soo I kinda would rather graduate with them, then the sophomores. They don't talk a lot of shit. =/ That's as far as anything goes, though. Nothing else new has happend. Me & Jonathan are having problems right now, because he's been acting funny.. nothing serious though, you'd get sick of him too if you lived with him.. -LOL- I guess it's time for me to go, though. He's got an interview tonight with the electrical union, & I've got to go to WalMart to get stuff to take to the hospital with me. Love Ya!! -Mollie

jonzbabii624 @ 2004-12-21T08:40:00

2004-12-21T14:42:36Z

Nothing really interesting has happend latley. My babyshower was yesterday, and a lot of people showed up. Which suprised me because I didn't think that many people would ya know? Seeing how I'm a pregnant teenager. But as far as actually BEING a pregnant teenager goes, who cares!! I'm happy, and by the way, me and Jonathan got married. :). It was amazing. He told me some things I didn't realize he felt for me, and when we said our vows.. wooooow!! I cried!! well, g2g. Just wanted to make a quick update, and see how everybody was doing. <33

hay.

2004-10-23T05:11:38Z

nothing really interesting has happend latley, besides more anonymous posts lol. me and raychie are friends again *yay* and i think this time it's for sure, and not just.. gerr, i dunno what you would call the last times we've appoligized.. fake maybe? on my part anyways. I got to hold my daddys ashes today, for the first time. That matured me in a lot of different aspects, now I have a job, and we've finally found an apartment we like !! woo hoo. it's about damn time. I had stomach pains this week, and called my doctor, and at the time she was out but her nurse said it was a 'rounded ligament' well, when my doctor came back, she realized it could have been braxton-hicks contractions soo they moved my appointment closer to make sure i wasn't THAT far along yet, because as far as we know, i'm only 6 months. i soo can't wait, and neither can jonathan, and everything is going to be PERFECT!! <33 well, it's like waaay past my bedtime, and i gotta work tommorrow. gnite <3 :)

jonzbabii624 @ 2004-10-14T15:48:00

2004-10-14T20:51:38Z

I've soo had it with the little girl who talks mad noise at my school. She knows who she is.

Anyways, just thought Id update on livejournal.. guess waht!! it's a boy<33 hehe :) soo cute. Jonathan's soo excited, but who isnt!! TOmmorrow is spirit day, and i really needa go buy me some more jeans and stuff, soo i'm gonna go. byeez <33

-mollie-

hay.

2004-09-22T12:10:38Z

I'm sure nobody looks at my journal anymore since I haven't opened it in a while, but if ya'll are out there, comment and let me know :)

The baby is doing fine, perfect health conditions for the both of us, and my pregnancy is going a long fine. I was supposed to find out what it is yesterday, but I have to get a 4-D ultrasound to know FOR SURE, and my doctor's hadent arrived yet, soo I have to reschedule another appointment for it.

Anyways, there's a new update. How have ya'll been doing? Comment me <33

Mollie

-bAd NeWs-

2004-07-30T05:39:03Z

my livejournal is officially closed =(

*BUT* i have a new journal.. n id definatly reccomend going to this place instead:

www.greatestjournal.com <33 itz got a lotta better thingz to work with.

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http://www.greatestjournal.com/users/_passi0nz/

i LOVE YOU JONATHAN <33

Me

2004-07-30T03:46:51Z

Physical Appearance
Height:: 5'2

Hair color:: Blonde

Eye color:: Honey Brown.

Favorites

Movie:: Blue Collar Comedy Tour; Homeroom; How To Deal; Mean Girls; Dirty Dancin; Lady and the Tramp; etc.

Type of movie:: I *PREFER* Chick Flicks.

Book:: She Said Yes- The Unlikley Martyrdom of Cassie Bernall.

Type of book:: I honestly dont read books.

author:: ?!?

Type of music:: Country.. Pop, n a lil bit of Rap.

Color:: Pink

Animal:: Frogs.

Car:: I like MY car. Plymouth Sundance.

Element (Earth, Air, Fire, Water):: Fire

Actor:: Colin Ferrill

Actress:: Julia Roberts

TV show:: Anything on MTV or the Disney Channel.

Cartoon:: Proud Family

Relationships

Are you dating someone right now?: Yes I am.

If yes, who?: Jonathan Gary Lee. 6.24.o3<333

If no, who do you wish you were dating?: I Love the one I have now ;] There aint nobody else for me.

How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?: Honestly iunno.. but this is the only one that matters.

Do you regret any of them?: Alla them.

Do you have a crush?: yess.

If yes, who?: JoNfIn<3

Do you think they like you back?: I know he loves me more then anything [except baseball] LOL.

Friends

Who is your best friend?: Jonathan, Stephanie, Laura, Erika, Jen.

Who are your close friends?: Tara F, Morgan, Sarah, Silas, Josh, Steve, Amy, Jarred, Chelsea.

Who do you tell your secrets to?: Jonathan n Steph.

Who do you wish you were friends with?: i dont have ne regrets on breakin off the freindships i have.

Who do you wish you weren't friends with?: *laughs*. jk. I love my friends.

Which friend do you see the most? Jonathan

Which friend do you not see enough?: Stephanie =*(

Who do you miss?: Jen

Family

Do you have a large family?: yeap

Do you like your family?: luv em

Do they ever get on your nerves?: alla tha time

Who's your favorite family member?: Jonathan

Do you have any pets? yeh

What are their names?: i have a kitty, Elvis.. n some fishies.

Do you wish you had more pets?: yeh

Your House

Do you live with your parents?: yeap.

How many floors are in your house?: 1

How many bedrooms are in it?: 5

How many bathrooms?: 1

Do you have a kitchen?: lol yeap

How many rooms total?: lemme go count..10

Where do you spend most of your time?: my bed.

Your Room

What color are your walls?: white

Your carpet?: light grey

What is on your dresser?: dont have a dresser.. i hang ALL my clothes up.

Do you have stuffed animals in your room?: only a few.. alla my frogs.. n the stuffed animals jonathans given me.

Do you have a tv in your room?: yeh

A radio?: yeh

Is your computer in your room?: nuh uhs.

What color are your sheets?: right now, pink.

Your blanket/comforter?: it's plaid pink with babyblue/yellow/white stripes.

How many blankets are on your bed?: 3

How many pillows?: 6

Do you have bunkbeds?: nuh uh

Do you have...

A computer?: well fkn duh.

A gaming system?: what kind? *I* dont have one but my bros do

Over 100 cds? nahh not really.

Over 100 games for your gaming system?: no

recliner?: n my house? yeah.

Your own car?: yeapp

Any hot pink article of clothing?: heck yeah. lol.

paintball gun?: i WISH i did.

A bedtime?: whenever i fall asleep.. n then all day the next day.

A swimming pool?: yeh

A lawnmower?: yapp

Evil nighbors?: well, the people across the street know jonathans gmaw.. soo that automatically makes her evil. besides them, i love my other neighbors.

Have u ever

Smoked?: nope

Drank alcohol?: yeah

Gotten drunk?: yea

Gotten high?: nope

Stolen anything?: nope

Cheated on a test?: nope

Cheated on a person?: never. as much as carcich n talley sware i did.. id never do that to nebody.. regardless how much i loved or didnt love them.

Hurt someone (physically)?: yeah

Hurt someone (emotionally)?: probably...

Gotten in a fight?: yeah

Won one or more of those fights?: notta winner.

Hated someone?: totally. *DoN*

Loved someone?: yeh.

Wished someone was dead?: not really. thats like jynx'n yourself.

Killed someone?: nuh uh

Cried?: everybody cries.

Had a nightmare?: yeh

Skipped a period?: lol yeapp. <3

More random stuff

What kind of car do you drive?: plymouth sundance

Do you like frogs?: yes

Have you ever watched a lizard eat?: nope

How many people have you hugged?: iuno.

how many people have you kissed?: iuno that either.

How long since you last cried?: 2-3 hours.

Do you like yourself?: yeh i really do think im a great person. i dont think im perfect, but i know there ARE some good things about me.

Hate yourself?: never.

Describe yourself with a song title:: "broken wing" -martina mcbride

Do you want to get married?: yeap

Do you want to have children?: FeB 21st. 2o05 <33

Do you want to live forever?: Depends on what jonathans plans are lol

Do you want to move? To where?: Anywheres but here.

Do you want to take a trip? To where?: California.. besides that, i wanna visit every state in the US before I die.

Do you like online surveys?: yeh

Do you think online surveys are fun when you're bored?: yeap

Are you glad this survey is over?: No.. that was short.

hay

2004-07-29T20:31:30Z

last night went great. yeah. right. me n jonathan had a lotta fun, n then my uncle kerrel showed up. that man didnt say one word to me until 12 last night. he got to the house at 6. n then invited everybody to go out to eat.. everybody except me. he personally asked jeff, miranda, mitch n matthew, n even my mom n she told him 'i hope you get lost'.. n never once did 'mollie, wana come?' come outta his mouth. oh well. i had much more fun w. jonathan ;] Speaking of jonathan, he left for Indiana today n he wont be back until Sunday *boo*. thatz okay.. ill still get to talk to him. They are up there for a family reunion.. I hope he has fun. [by the way steph, the church on lemoyne is the penecostal church across from the st martin library].

id write more.. but im really tired. byez.

Hay

2004-07-28T18:34:39Z

I was so tired last night, I went to sleep at 10. Alla yall know thatz a wierd thing for me. I didnt get out of bed until 12 Lol.. I've been soo tired n cranky. I think thatz why me n Jonathan got into a fight yesterday. *Baby, Im sorry*. Oh well. fightz happen. Hes coming over today<3333 I have to find a new church to go to, I really wana stay at Lemoyne, but JOnathan doesnt want to because he absoutluley cannot stand Jesse, or his parents. I know why though, they have a lot of ties with Jonathans gmaw, and she's a bitch. =) Soo I'm going to make him happy. Relationshipz ARE about sacrifises, and I wouldn't want him to go with me, n then be unhappy. Ya know? Thatz not what church is for. I just hope we find a good one. I didn't think Id ever leave Lemoyne.. N hopefully he'll change his mind.

I had the best conversation with Stephanie today. Lord, I dont know what I would do without her. She's such a great friend. I never imagined the thingz that are going on would happen, especially to both of us at the same time. Itz great.. and I'm really excited. I hope, when the time comes, that the dates are a lot closer together.

I want a pig-in-a-blanket. That soundz really good right now. Soo ill tell yall how thingz went later. Love ya'll..

-mollie lee-
i LOVE YOU JONATHAN<33

I MiSS JoNaTHaN

2004-07-27T03:14:16Z

Im back, man i had a long day. I had to go school shoppin, n i just got way too tired way to early. I think I know why though =) Jonathan came over afterwards n we had a lotta fun. He only got to stay for like 30 min, because he had already been with me for liek 4 hours.. n his mama wanted him home *sniff* but oh well, better then nothin. so. He's such a sweetheart, i sware iuno what id do without him. Well, just a few min. ago i had a really moody mood swing n it kinda pissed him off a lil bit, but hay, thatz just somethin he's gotta get used to. N i was told today that they are only gonna get worse. I guess itz good ive never been one to blurt out stuff thatz gona make people mad.. my friends would hate me at the end of this 9 months. Iunno if Jonathan is gonna let *some* of my friends come around the baby. Theres just some people I kno hez gonna say "no way,itz my kid too" to. The ONE friend i have these dayz that he actually likez is Steph. He's only met her once, but he doesnt have a problem wit her. He has no reason to. But theres a few other people who i *know* are gonna have a problem seein the baby. N thatz okay for the most part, but some of my friends that he doesnt care for are prolly gonna be the lifesavers when i need a babysitter 2-3 years from now. He's gonna have to remember that. I was in McDonalds Sunday, N i just stood there smiling because I know Im carryin somethin not many people kno about, n it makez me feel great. <333
7 weekz and 2 dayz until I find out what it is.. me n steph were talkin abotu hearin the heartbeat today.. do they do that this early? Iunno I hope so, because i get my next appointment on the 9th N thatz definatly somethin Im lookin forward to. I'm lookin forward to everything that comes along with havin a baby. Itz gona be great..

Well I think Im done for the night. I need to go to sleep sometimes soon, i have an appt. at 10:15 in the mornin, n then im goin to Woolmarket Elementary to help JOnathans mom set up her room. *yay* Well, goodnight. <3 mWahz.

-I LOVE YOU JONATHAN-
*mollie Lee

hay<3

2004-07-26T18:49:38Z

I'm back. I wish my mom would get home. We're going buy me more school clothes [since ill be needing more soon anyways] -hehe-. Me n JOnathan went to a diff. church yesterday mornin, we went to that Penecostal churcho n Lemoyne, n it was actually a pretty good praise n worship service. I actually liked it a lot better then Cedar Lake, but my <3 is still with Lemoyne Baptist, n im still goin there on Sun. nights n Wed. nights. Then afterwards we went to Wal-Mart n got some stuff to make hamburgers with, went back to his house, ate lunch, n then he came over here to play Home-Run Derby w. my lil bros but it started rainin soo we couldn't. So instead we did the second thing that makez him happy ;] Lord knows baseball is now his number 1 priority lol. Hay, thatz okay, besides the baby, its mine too. lol. *GO BrAVes!!* well hay.. mommas here. ill be back later yall..

Love Always,
mollie

I pray for:
Stephanie, Tim, and the baby.. Me, JOnathan, and the Baby, Randy Zimmerman, alla my friends who are havin *issues* and i wanna pray for Megan Wilkerson.

I love You Jonathan

School..

2004-07-26T17:57:33Z

i went n got my schedule today. here's my classes!!

the first two 9-weeks i have to take the 9th grade classes i didnt get to finish

1st 9 wkz:
1. pre algebra- tavel [ms patterson, she got married]
2. comprehensive health- coach williams
3. english 9- Daniel
4. Environmental Science- Hansen

2nd 9 wkz:
1. Pre Alg. - Tavel
2. Physical Education- Marsland
3. English 9- Daniel
4. Field Exp. in Environmental Science- Zimmerman

***my 10 grade classes***
1. Alg. 1- Richardson
2. English 10- Sinclair
3. Wrld History- Grove
4. Theatre Arts- Dawson

[and the same goes for my 4th term classes]

kay, tell me if we have ne classes together<33 byez

Big News

2004-07-25T04:15:05Z

Well, I was waiting to post this because I wanted to tell Stephanie before anybody else knew. Me and Jonathan are really happy about it.. but there's a lot of people who are thinking i'm ruining my life. I'm ready for it. I was tought right [thanks to steph lol] that nobody elses opinion matters, except mine. I'm happy about it.. if *you* aren't it really doesn't matter to me. I'm 8 weeks and 3 days pregnant. I went to the health department on Friday, and after they weighed me, n alla that stuff, the doctor came in and she was like "your test came back positive" i was like.. "Wait, Positive that I am or positive that i'm not!!?" and she had to tell me straight up "yes, you are pregnant" lol. So after we talked about Medicade and stuff, and the WIC meetings I have to go to in Pascagoula.. she gave me prenatal vitamins [which, thank God, DONT make me sick].. n I walked out of the room w all of this stuff and Jonathan knew.. and he got all teary eyed *tear*. I'm due Feb. 21st. Only 7 weeks and 4 days until I find out *WHAT* it is lol. My parents know, my family knows, his family knows, and nobody has bitched me out yet, soo I guess that's a good thing. My mom said "well i'm glad that it was with somebody like Jonathan" even though I know she's still dissappointed. Who wouldn't be? Well ya'll.. there's the news. I hope I get to tell Stephanie before she reads this. <333

Love Always,
Mollie

hay

2004-07-23T16:04:31Z

A lot of the teachers I saw were very happy to see me =) As soon as I walked in, Mrs Farrington says "Well, Look who is back! Are you going to stay this time? You BETTER come see me, if you need ANYTHING my room is across from Mr. Nelms' room, PLEASE come see me!" lol. She's such an awesome person, I look up to her for a lot of things. She knew Jonathan so she helped me out during those hard times. It's wierd trusting a teacher.

Anyways. I think I am about to go back to sleep, maybe wake up at like 12:30 and get ready for Jonathan to come over. I wonder how his tour went. All I know is, I'm extremely happy I'm going back to *real* school. Jonathan Jonathan Jonathan. I think he should go back to St. Martin and finish high school, but which ever way works for him. I'm happy, I guess. We fought a lot yesterday. I was simply in a rotten mood, and he wasn't doing anything to help that. Listen: I wanted to throw him a little "welcome back" get together, and invite his best friends over, because he hasn't seen them in a long time. Anyways- when I told him about it, he was like "if I wanted to see my friends, mollie, I could see them anytime I want.." and totally made me feel like crap because I really wanted to do something nice for him, and he blew off the idea. Which, honestly, didn't feel too great at all. He just doesn't realize how sensitive I am about those things.

Shannel is a sweetie.. she wrote "Mollie is my babygirl. She's been really strong through her hard times, and we've both realized that if you want you can have anything you want" or something to that extent. I didn't think anybody noticed how strong i was TRYING to be. I wasn't trying to make it obvious.. but it took a lot to get through not being able to see Jonathan. [Thanks Shannel]

Okay, well, that's all for right now. I'm going back to bed. I feel like I'm going to throw up!!
I love ya'llz a lotz.

-Mollie lee
I LOVE YOU JONATHAN

<333

2004-07-23T13:59:19Z

welp.. im goin register.its not gonna be easy walkin back n that school knowin all of the hard times i have n there.. due to certain people. n knowin im just like, allowin myself to be treated badly by some people. n i know at the end of the year im gonna feel like *if* i had a bad year.. itz all gonna be my fault. i dont HAVE to go back.. but im going back ne ways. im focusing on my grades n my education.. not my friends ne more. thatz not what its about. i'm getting married n june, i dont care about any of them.. only a select few -n i love yall: steph, jonathan,rhyannen, etc *yall kno who u are*- i better be ableto chose my electives.. i doubt ill be able to tho. maybe so.

jonathans coming over today! right now, he's at a tour.. a tour of job corps. *tears*. it's wahts best for him and i DONT have a problem with him going becuase i know hell do good there.. hell get an education, a graduation, n alla that stuff, but, i JUST got him back, why does he have to go like RIGHT this second, they planned it way to early. i'm just adjusting to him being back here n pretty soon im gonna have to adjust to him being even FARTHER away n Gulfport. Atleast he wont be with his daddy tho. Thats a good thing.

well, we're leaving.. -gags- i wonder who all im gonna see up there.. ill post my classes for ya'll when i get back.

<3 mollie
*i love you jonathan gary lee!!!*

hay<3

2004-07-23T05:13:00Z

today was kinda miserable. i didnt wake up until 12:30 which means me n rhyannen n heather didnt get to go look at wedding dresses like we were gonna. i have to start lookin at those. Yall.. Jonathan doesnt think i wana marry him! He asked me if i was gonna run out on him after we got married, n iunno who/what put that n his head, but it kinda hurt. I have put 1 year and 1 month aside of this boy.. n hes gonna go off n say somethin like that. I love him and i DO wanna marry him. I know other people my age look at me and they think im stupid, but why wait? I know hes the one for me, and i know this isn't just "teenage love". itz gonna last forever. we've never cheated on each other.. or ne thing like that. n theres 100% honesty n everthing we do. well, most things. >>>>>Baby, I know i went through a little phase where I thought you didnt NEED to know everything i did, n who i was with all the time, n im sorry for that. It's all because while I'm here in st martin, theres people tellin me "you are independent, theres no need to let him control your life". well baby, i wanna be controlled by you because i love it. It doesnt depress me like it would other people.. because i know i control you just as much. =) n thatz always a veryyyy good thing. hehe. Whatever happends tommorrow happends, n were gonna be happy either way.

My mom is pissed at me of course.. n she doesnt really wanna talk to me.. at all. She KNOWS i've thought i was pregnant for a while now.. n just because mrs. trish finally stepped up n said 'hay im takin her to the hd'.. my mom gets mad. i totally understand why tho.. but why didnt she get mad 3 months ago? when i FIRST skipped my period? some things just dont make sense. n a way im kinda hoping im pregnant.. because if im not, that means theres something deathly wrong w. my body. my stomach does poke out a lil bit.. lol.. only towards the bottom tho.. n i havent been eating anything to gain weight.. iunno. i hope everythings okay..

well.. im off to bed yall. ill update tommorrow.
-mollie
i love you jonathan

What a day.

2004-07-22T07:04:26Z

well today actually went pretty well. Plan was that jonathan was gonna come over.. that didnt happen. instead i met him an hour earlier at edgewater n helped him n his little sisters get school clothes. lol. His grandmaw was there so we spent the whole time runnin from them, i sware the headcase had somebody followin us. Either way. Oh well. My friends parents took it great that shes making changes in her life *lol* n im soo happy about that. Lets see what happends with me now. I have an appt. tuesday at the health dept.. atleast Jonathans going with me. The circumstances just seem to wierd right now. I didnt have my period in May, June, or July..n ive never skipped before, so itz not like i have an irregular pd.. here are some other thingz im showin:

-frequently having to pee [lol]
-constant cravings
-always tired.. always sleeping
-i cant lay on my left side w/o it killing me.

well.. iunno. i dont wanna sound like a drama queen. Jonathan has an interview tommorrow at jobcorps... yay...
like i knew he was gonna end up goin i should have jsut kept my mouth shut when his mom asked me if i was okay with it.. i still am okay with it.. i just dont want him to go RIGHT this second. he's going to learn how to be a cook.. or something. aint that cute. lol. well just see what happendz..

soo ne wayz. schoolz coming up soo quickly. tommorrow, i have to go look at wedding dresses, and then i have to go to the counselors office at the high school to talk to her about what shes gonna do.. cuz iunno if im just gonna be n the 10th grade [since when i went into homeschooling i wasnt failing any of my classes] or if shes gonna make me take algebra n english 1 again since i didnt exactly get to finish them. iuno tho.. ive been n that damn school too long, two years n the 8th grade.. one in the 9th.. im soo ready to go to the gold building. i aint gonna buy a wedding dress tommorrow.. just trying them on. There's an official date by the way. N plans have changed, like they always do.. except this time. He's living with his mom now, which means getting our papers signed n dec. is out of the question since it was Don who was gonna let us get married [n i doubt that would have happend anyways]. She said we can get married as soon as he getz outta job corps..well he'll be out before June but we're gonna wait until our 2 year anniv. to do it anyways.. soo june 24th 2005 is the date. n we're having a real wedding.. not some little caddy-shack thing at the courthouse. Okay well im done talkin about it.. i bought a bib the other day.. it says:

I L<3Ve My DaDDy! jonathan loved it.. lol. well im out yall.. goodnight. mwahs- mollie

Me again.

2004-07-21T07:03:06Z

I'm still soo anxious about tommorrow. It will be really good for us to be able to sit n talk, in the privacy of my OWN home this time.. n not worry about his dad making us shut up, or whatever. For the past 2 months I have sworn to myself up and down that he didn't love me.. that he was over me, cheating on me, just.. anything possible you can imagine im sure it ran through my head once or twice. It still killz me to kno i went through that.. but he really doesnt kno how much he hurt me these past few monthz. I kno itz just because he was "under the influence" of his daddy n everthing.. n im not sayin they are alike because they act NOTHING alike.. jonathanz a way better person.. but his dad is always yelling at jonathans step mom, always threatening her.. n i kno thatz kinda why jonathan actz that way. he got sick of it. let me tell you tho.. since hez been home hes been soo sweet, hez the old jonathan again, n itz amazing what kinda changez hes already brought himself through just by going back to where he needz to be. his mom told me when we get married, we need to move far away from here if we wana work. n thatz soo true. im just glad im not the only one who has been thinkin that. n when i leave, only she and my mom will kno where n how to get there. n maybe some of our closest friends. thingz just confuse me way to much these dayz. iunno what im gonna do when he getz here tommorrow.. will i even be able to talk? im not usually nervous about seeing him.. atleast not THIS much. man oh man. its like meeting somebody face to face for the first time.. n techically righst now thatz how im lookin at it..i havent seen MY jonathan since february.. ive seen the jonathan his daddy wanted him to be. All the cuddling, yeah weve done that.. n hes done some really sweet things since feb, im not sayin he hasnt.. he just hasent been himself. Now I think itz going to get better.. somebody help me talk him into going to church with me. Lol. He doesnt wanna go because Mrs. Robin and Mr. Larry will get n our buisness.. n yehh they will n i kno thaat, but i go ne ways. it doesnt matter to me.. i just tell him itz none of their concert, whether im rude about it or not. [Mrs Robin n Mr Larry are Jonathan's "best friends" parents.. who are ulitmatley tied it with Jonathans mawmaw in Vancleave.. and he hates her.] Atleast I think he does.. if he doesnt then I DO. I just try to stay outta tha family buisness as much as i can.. either way tho i alwayz get brough into it. I don't think Mr. Charlie (the man i consider jonathans REAL dad) likez me very much ne more.. i can understand why i guess.. but i hope he doesnt have ne issues with me. That would be awful..

Well Ya'll I'm going dream about Jonathan, since ya kno I just love him mroe then anything =)

Goodnight, LOVE YOU!!
~> I <33 YoU STePHaNiE!!

-Mollie Lee

Life is great.

2004-07-21T06:08:32Z

It's officiall.. yay. lol. He's back. I know I've been talking about it for forever now.. but he's finally here and he's with his mom and he's home and he's where he needs to be.. and i can't be happier for all of them. Stephanie has always told me "you have to hit rock bottom before things get better" and she was totally right. I got rid of my AIM today so I hope she still emails me.. n readz my journal. Shes one of hte only ones I'm seriously gonna miss talkin to.. I just don't want Jonathan to get upset about the internet. He thinks it's a horrible thing. Anyways~> He's coming over tommorrow.. at 2:30 and i dont knowww what to do lol.. I've been dating him for almost a year and a month now.. n i still get butterflies.. even over the smallest thingz. Love is great. How can somebody come into your life in one moment and then all of a sudden everything you ever wanted is laid out infront of you? I don't know but somehow things just seem to happen. I'm soo in love with him. For forever, people have been talkin soo much about how we would never make it.. NANANA. Anyways.. ill update again here nl ike 5 min.. gota do somethin.. byez <33

I LOVE JONATHAN>

-mollie lee

hay

2004-07-18T20:29:30Z

my day has been boring so far. i got up at 8 to go to church, but i was throwing up so i set up my NEW bed n went back to sleep. sure does beat sleeping on a damn futon. then i watched pochohantos(sp?) 2 and fell asleep.. so yeh, theres my day so far. i'm hungry.. but i kno if i eat ne thing im gona throw up.

*how do u burn your boob and belly making dinner??!*

theres yalls question for today, i figured it would be impossible, but leave it to shannel to find a way. lol. anyways, im out yall. im gonna eat me somethin.. we're both hungry =) i love yall. byeez.

hAy

2004-07-18T13:57:37Z

ya kno.. my best friend has always told me "you have to hit rock bottom before it gets okay".. and honestly, i wish it would hit rock bottom! Everytime I think I'm almost there, things get better again, and i know thats not good, because that means sometime else I AM going to hit rock bottom. why cant i just get it over with? lol. [thanks steph]

Hay Jessica, yeah the one who was trying to take jonathan! Read this:

Give it your all girl, give it all ya got,
You can take a chance, and take your best shot,
I see what you want girl, and whatcha do,
He's never gonna, gonna make it with you..

Your pullin' petals of a flower tryin' to get your way,
Keep pullin' til its says what you want it to say,
Girl you can pick a field full of daisies,
But he'd still be my baby,

And I know you can hardly wait 'til I'm away from him,
Instinctively, I know what your thinkin',
You'll be givin' him an open invitation,
But my baby won't be taken in...

You can pout your cherry lips,
Try to tempt him with a sweet kiss,
You can flurt your pretty eyes,
He ain't got his hands tied..

No chains to unlock, so free to do what he wants,
He's into what he's got,
He loves me, he loves you not,
No matter what you do, he's never gonna be with you,
He's into what he's got,
He loves me, he loves you not...

You're the kinda girl that's always up for do-or-dare
Only want him just because he's there,
Always lookin for a new ride,
The grass is greener on the other side..
You're the kinda girl who's not used to hearing no
All your lovers try to take you where you wanna go,
Doesn't matter how hard you try,
Your never gonna get away with my guy..

No chains to unlock, so free to do what he wants,
He's into what hes got,
He loves me, he loves you not,
No matter what you do,
He's never gonna be with you,
He's into what he's got,*AND THATS ME*
He loves me, he loves you not...

Doesn't matter what you do, he's never gonna be with you

Give it your all girl, give it all you got,
You can take a chance, and take your best shot,
Say what you want girl, do whatcha do,
He's never gonna make it with you..

You can pout your cherry lips,
Try to tempt him with a sweet kiss,
You can flurt your pretty eyes,
He ain't got his hands tied..

No chains to unlock, so free to do what he wants,
He's into what he's got,
He loves me, he loves you not,
No matter what you do, he's never gonna be with you,
He's into what he's got, *AND THATS ME*
He loves me, he loves you not...

No chains to unlock, so free to do what he wants,
He's into what he's got,
He loves me, he loves you not,
No matter what you do, he's never gonna be with you, He's into what he's got, *AND THATS ME*
He loves me, he loves you not...

We're Expecting*!!

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